Chronic Pain..........AnD sTuFf

Could this chest pain ReAlLy be caused by anxiety etc.????????????

2008-10-15T13:49:00.000-07:00

It just seems so impossible that my sudden onset of heart pain more than two years could be caused from anxiety or depression or whatever the doctor thinks. I had a normal chest x-ray and ekg thing, and she will not give me a stress test now. Instead she tells me to take my paxil!! I cant take that shit, I'm too scared....will it really help with my fibromaylgia and insomnia????

How can they think I am not at risk, and what do I have to do to get a cardiac stress test??

My total cholesterol is 204
Triglycerides 777!!!!!!!
LDL 144
HDL 45

I had went in for chest pain over a year before I ever came down with RA or depression and crap, so that is why I don't think this chest pain is not stress related. And the facts are not enough that my grandfather has had three heart attacks and is still alive, But my poor father passed last year in his sleep of a massive heart attack or something heart related....right after a physical that he passed with flying colors!

happy BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE!!!!

2008-10-08T11:00:00.000-07:00

Yup, I am turning the big 29 today!

I don't have any plans except to actually rest today, like actually lay down with my feet up and just relaaaax, and have an "excuse" to be able to do it!! So I will smoke this blunt I am rolling and retire my beautiful sofa and watch the news channels all day lol, maybe I'll find a good chick flick lol. I exercised this morning, so I don't feel completely worthless about not lifting a finger today!

Happy Birthday to everyone born on October 8th!!

I took my Humira today!!

2008-10-06T13:24:00.000-07:00

It has been at least 5 months since I have taken Humira, and about 7 since I stopped mtx because it kills my stomach. I do prednisone bursts every once and a while, then go on to just 5mg pred a day, and well I have been off again for about two weeks! LOLLL, what a complete fool I am still!!

I have been trying to exercise and loose some weight, and I have, I went from 210 after I had the baby on 8-07, up to 238 a few months ago! I am at exactly 210 now and trying my hardest not to gain.

I got up yesterday morning and decided to go for a walk, so I went to 7-11 for a blunt wrap and went to the park. I went and done stretches and stuff and walked around the park and came home, I was gone for a lil over an hour, it felt soooooooooOOOO good! sO last night my body started hurting and my freakin right hip starts KILlllling me! LOL my husband was all, "oh thats just cus you exercised"!!! LOL like if I had never f;alje iairjging exercised before, and last night I was in complete aGoNy from my hip, MY FREAKIN HIP WTFF??!! I was up crying all night! So I decided to just take the Humira and just see if I can live life a little again before soMething kills my ass! My hip is almost frozen, from inflamation I presume and I can barely put any weight on it, I can't deal with this sh!T!!

I want to exercise and feel good after like before, like one is supposed to....I don't want to do exercise and have a frozen hip for a week after! I am seriously thinking about starting this paxil cr that I have...super scary!!

My husband came in the room this morning and I told him. I also told him that he should leave me and that he don't deserve to suffer just because I am all fUked up, and that there is really nothing I can do for him, I can't make love to him every day, and I don't even want to, and probably would'nt if I could......and that I am not gonna continue to try to make hIM happy all the while suffering and in pain while keeping a spotless house and dinner ready and bla bla, and then to feel like he don't appreciate it!......I can'T do it anymore, he thinks I am fine and just don't want to LOL, he kinda understands whats happened to me I guess..

I can't give my all to someone else who is not my child....not anymore....not now...not until my medicine starts working or something.......I am not in this for the years and five years of marriage means nothing to me, I never really wanted to marry in the first place and less now!

He just laid there and hugged me tighter.....................

Insomnia is such a piece of CRAP!!!

2008-10-05T09:57:00.001-07:00

Sometimes I wonder if I have actually slept really at all in the past 8 months. Not being able to sleep "correctly", is enough alone to drive someone crazy. Ok, ill just speak for Myself....ITS DRIVING MEEE CRAAZYYYY!!!!!

I finally remembered to tell the doctor about my sleeping problems, well this was the pa that seen me, I don't like her too much, shes was so fast talking, she gave me some Ambien 6.25 and 12.5, denied me a stress test and sent me on my way.

Very sadly, the Ambiens did not work at all =-(*** Before I got sick, a Tylenol pm would put me out cold for like 10 hrs!!! how could this be happening to mEE???????????

Should I try two 12.5 tabs? Is it ok to mix a 12.5 and 6.25, because that's all she gave me??

I have had chest pain for well over two years, ekg and chest x-rays come back normal, I asked for a possible cardiac stress test or whatever and she said nO, because its just stress (biological), and theres nothing wrong with my heart. The fact that my tryglicerides are 777 and my father dropped dead of a massive heart attack in his sleep last year, has nothing to do with it..

What do yOU do for insomnia?

MRI RESULTS

2008-10-02T18:26:00.000-07:00

No abnormal masses or lesions were found, and all the ligaments appear intact. YES!! But there was a few problems as described below..

L3-4 Mild intervertebral disc degeneration without neural compression.

L4-5 Central/right paracentral disc protrusion with mild impression on the ventral thecal sac centrally and to the right of midline.

L5-S1 Intervertebral disc degeneration. Central disc extrusion with mild impression on each S1 root.

She basically said it's not that bad and I probably don't need surgery, then referred me to someone else that will call me sometime to set up an apt! I would like to try traction or a decompression tecnique personally, because I have been through physical therapy 4 times with no change in my back pain. I have not been able to manage my back pain for the past 7-10 yEArs......it manages mE!

Sometimes I feel like doctors don't believe my pain and illnesses due to my age, I could be wrong but that's just the vibe I get. Even though the proof is starring them in their faces. They look at me in disbelief when I tell them that the vicodin does absolutely nothing for my pains so I don't take them. I am so emotionally distraught with everything that has happened to me this past year that I can't swallow the lump in my throat and hold back the tears long enough to insiST that I need something else. I believe my back pain stems from horse riding accidents when I was about 10, and another about 8 years ago..

Why become a doctor if you don't know enough about pain and pain medications to help your patients, after all, that iS why they became doctors right, to help people.....?

Welcome everyone!!

2008-10-01T14:30:00.000-07:00

Good day and welcome to my piece of history!! This is my first of many blog entries to come!

I am creating this blog to tell about my personal Rheumatoid Arthritis journey that has oh just started, and to give my general opinions on things that interest me....also just random chat and rant about random things and thoughts...

Please allow me to introduce myself. I am 28 years young and I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis in December 2007, three months after the birth (c-section) of my 3rd child. My first symptoms were on august 30, 2007 when I thought I had just slept on my shoulder wrong. Within one week I was stricken with pain and could not move my arm from the shoulder to the finger tips. With days, every joint in my body was shutting down and I was stuck in bed slowly dying of agonizing pain. My poor doctor told me it was postpartum from having the baby and tried to give me Prozac LOL! I refused and suffered until the blood tests came, then was given Prednisone get get my mobility back while waiting for the Rheumatologist. The prednisone cleared up everything up then, but my RA has come to settle mostly in my wrists and hands.

I currently take 0-15 mg of Prednisone daily and it is doing my absolutely no good, I have to start back on my Humira but I'm just too scared. My hands have been swollen for five months, ever since I quit my Humira because I felt like it was not working well enough for all of the possible side affects (boy was I wrong!), and I have pain in most joint 24/7, and not to mention my Fibromialgia and insomnia phenomenons, and all of the mental changes that are taking place.

I also suffer from chronic lower back pain for about 14 years, that may be due to a couple of horse riding accidents I had when I was younger. Last week I finally had an MRI scan done of my back and I go in today to get the results..........to be continued...........